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[quote="RAGEdemon"]I really feel for your situation mate. I was reading something a while back which said that bright sparks like yourself do tend to have mental problems which are much more likely - like shown by Russell Crowe in the movie 'A Beautiful Mind'. A movie quote of which I am reminded of is "a light that burns twice as bright burns half as long". Please don't burn out mate![/quote]Yeah, sometimes I wonder if it's the Universe' way of making sure we can't take over the world :) Also, I have a family history, which means I check off the genetic component and that amounts to 50% of the risk. [quote]I was also reading that smart introverts also tend to suffer from undiagnosed Anxiety, which is quite crippling to their lives, and leads to other illnesses such as depression. The main symptom of anxiety is feeling pressure to do too many things at once.[/quote]Interesting that you should mention that - I only have a few symptoms that can be attributed to anxiety disorder (whereas I meet almost all the [url=https://www.beyondblue.org.au/the-facts/depression/signs-and-symptoms]symptoms of major depressive disorder[/url]*), but that would be one that I do identify with. * It's faster for me to list the symptoms I *DON'T* meet for depression, which are "relying on alcohol and sedatives", "headaches and muscle pains" and "significant weight loss or gain". Everything else on that page applies to me. @greatxerox I know you mean well, but your comments really are not helping (there's some good articles on The Mighty about things you should and should not say to someone who is depressed).
RAGEdemon said:I really feel for your situation mate. I was reading something a while back which said that bright sparks like yourself do tend to have mental problems which are much more likely - like shown by Russell Crowe in the movie 'A Beautiful Mind'. A movie quote of which I am reminded of is "a light that burns twice as bright burns half as long". Please don't burn out mate!
Yeah, sometimes I wonder if it's the Universe' way of making sure we can't take over the world :)

Also, I have a family history, which means I check off the genetic component and that amounts to 50% of the risk.

I was also reading that smart introverts also tend to suffer from undiagnosed Anxiety, which is quite crippling to their lives, and leads to other illnesses such as depression. The main symptom of anxiety is feeling pressure to do too many things at once.
Interesting that you should mention that - I only have a few symptoms that can be attributed to anxiety disorder (whereas I meet almost all the symptoms of major depressive disorder*), but that would be one that I do identify with.

* It's faster for me to list the symptoms I *DON'T* meet for depression, which are "relying on alcohol and sedatives", "headaches and muscle pains" and "significant weight loss or gain". Everything else on that page applies to me.


@greatxerox I know you mean well, but your comments really are not helping (there's some good articles on The Mighty about things you should and should not say to someone who is depressed).

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Posted 08/13/2017 11:24 PM   
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#47
Posted 08/14/2017 01:18 AM   
This chears me up when i see it. Keeps showing up in my youtube recommended because i keep watching it. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=xS0XiOLW_Qk
This chears me up when i see it. Keeps showing up in my youtube recommended because i keep watching it.

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#48
Posted 08/14/2017 08:02 AM   
DSS, I can't give you any really good advice but all I can say is "no pressure" but you're a light to all of us 3d fans on this forum so you're directly bringing some good into this world. I don't have any of the classical symptoms you describe but I and my family (my cousin is the same) suffer from anxiety in various forms and I know it holds me back in life but it's something that I've just written off now, maybe that's a mistake. Anyway, the point it, kudos to you for talking about it in public. I'm sure this forum isn't the support forum you ever envisaged but we're all real people and although it's hard to relate there is real love here brother.
DSS, I can't give you any really good advice but all I can say is "no pressure" but you're a light to all of us 3d fans on this forum so you're directly bringing some good into this world.
I don't have any of the classical symptoms you describe but I and my family (my cousin is the same) suffer from anxiety in various forms and I know it holds me back in life but it's something that I've just written off now, maybe that's a mistake.
Anyway, the point it, kudos to you for talking about it in public. I'm sure this forum isn't the support forum you ever envisaged but we're all real people and although it's hard to relate there is real love here brother.

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#49
Posted 08/14/2017 07:41 PM   
I hope you will be fine soon. I am certainly not a big help either, but from time to time I change radically hobbies in my life, or better said my focus of interests. Then I mostly get a lot into the new subject. During studies, it was luckily Law School - after getting through the party phase -, but when I finished and got my first job I was heavily getting into PC gaming, as you can see on my Steam account. On the other hand I have to admit that with PC Gaming came also some sort of social exclusion after work or on weekends since I prefered to stay at home and play and not to go out - first drug Skyrim and Diablo III. Recently gaming starts to bore me a bit, so now I try to get my luck with financial products, investing and all this stuff. It is thrilling to learn something new. Nowdays you can via watching Youtube videos, which is so refreshing. In the beginning you do not undertand it, but with time you develop a certain security. Focusing on new hobbies always helps me. But I understand that this is actually not your problem, since depression just does not give you the push to do something at all. I though I read that you actually get depressed that you get financial problems. So maybe you can focus on earning money for a while. Smart people like you can become actually very successfull. Sorry, if I am totally wrong. Wish you all the best! It will become better.
I hope you will be fine soon.

I am certainly not a big help either, but from time to time I change radically hobbies in my life, or better said my focus of interests. Then I mostly get a lot into the new subject. During studies, it was luckily Law School - after getting through the party phase -, but when I finished and got my first job I was heavily getting into PC gaming, as you can see on my Steam account. On the other hand I have to admit that with PC Gaming came also some sort of social exclusion after work or on weekends since I prefered to stay at home and play and not to go out - first drug Skyrim and Diablo III. Recently gaming starts to bore me a bit, so now I try to get my luck with financial products, investing and all this stuff. It is thrilling to learn something new. Nowdays you can via watching Youtube videos, which is so refreshing. In the beginning you do not undertand it, but with time you develop a certain security. Focusing on new hobbies always helps me. But I understand that this is actually not your problem, since depression just does not give you the push to do something at all. I though I read that you actually get depressed that you get financial problems. So maybe you can focus on earning money for a while. Smart people like you can become actually very successfull. Sorry, if I am totally wrong. Wish you all the best! It will become better.

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#50
Posted 08/14/2017 08:44 PM   
Hi DSS, I know how much you liked "Life Is Strange"! I can recommend "Hellblade" with all my hearth! (http://store.steampowered.com/app/414340/Hellblade_Senuas_Sacrifice/) I feel in-love with this game! (The more I play it, the more I love it!) 3D Fix or not, I recommend giving it a go for an awesome experience and unforgettable feelings! I really hope you will like it too! Respect, Helifax
Hi DSS,

I know how much you liked "Life Is Strange"!
I can recommend "Hellblade" with all my hearth!
(http://store.steampowered.com/app/414340/Hellblade_Senuas_Sacrifice/)

I feel in-love with this game! (The more I play it, the more I love it!) 3D Fix or not, I recommend giving it a go for an awesome experience and unforgettable feelings!

I really hope you will like it too!

Respect,
Helifax

#51
Posted 08/14/2017 09:47 PM   
Ooo, I don't know about playing Hellblade when you're already messing with real life mental health issues. Let's see, something serene with little frustration... Valley ( http://store.steampowered.com/app/378610/Valley/ ) is pretty serene most of the time and most of it is plenty easy, too. Oh, and its 75% off this week! No Man's Sky has a 'creative' mode now where everything is free and death is impossible so you can just explore the universe and take screenshots of it. You can switch back and forth from the main game to creative, too, as they use different save files.
Ooo, I don't know about playing Hellblade when you're already messing with real life mental health issues. Let's see, something serene with little frustration...

Valley ( http://store.steampowered.com/app/378610/Valley/ ) is pretty serene most of the time and most of it is plenty easy, too. Oh, and its 75% off this week!

No Man's Sky has a 'creative' mode now where everything is free and death is impossible so you can just explore the universe and take screenshots of it. You can switch back and forth from the main game to creative, too, as they use different save files.

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#52
Posted 08/14/2017 11:47 PM   
[img]https://res.cloudinary.com/jerrick/image/upload/c_fit,f_auto,fl_progressive,q_auto,w_1140/npabn40du6klmwbv20g2[/img] "I must not [s]fear[/s] be depressed. Depression [s]Fear[/s] is the mind-killer. Depression [s]Fear[/s] is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my [s]fear[/s] depression. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the [s]fear[/s] depression has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain." ...would have said Paul Muad'Dib. DSS, don't forget you are loved and respected around this world!
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"I must not fear be depressed.

Depression Fear is the mind-killer.
Depression Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.

I will face my fear depression.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.

And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear depression has gone there will be nothing.

Only I will remain."

...would have said Paul Muad'Dib.


DSS, don't forget you are loved and respected around this world!

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#53
Posted 08/15/2017 11:03 AM   
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